I didn’t plan this.

I didn’t plan to go to UGA. I wanted to go to an out of state school that I couldn’t afford. But God wanted me at the University of Georgia.

When I got there, I didn’t plan to join any groups or organizations. I wanted to lay low and have time to breathe after practically killing myself to stand out in high school. But God had just the group that he wanted me to join.

I didn’t plan to let anyone into my inner self. I didn’t want to trust anyone with my struggles and emotions. I wanted to appear to everyone else as a happy person who had her whole life together and knew exactly what she was doing. But God knew just the people to send into my life to break down walls and teach me how to trust again.

I didn’t plan to give up on my dream of having a packed resume at the end of my freshman year. I wanted to have as many titles and positions as I could so maybe I’d have a chance at impressing a future employer over the summer. But God closed every single door that he didn’t want me to walk through.

I didn’t plan to work on a student government campaign. That was the last place I EVER imagined myself, and in fact, I was hesitant to get involved. But God knew what I would learn from that experience. God knew it would change my life. And God knew exactly who he was placing in my path when he put me on that team.

I didn’t plan to spend this summer taking an online class at home. I wanted to be working a glamorous internship. But God knew I needed to slow down and take time to appreciate the people I have in my life.

I didn’t plan to start going to church while I was home again. What would be the point of that? I’ll only be here sporadically because I live in Athens most of the time now. But God knew exactly what I needed to hear.

I didn’t plan on my heart being reignited with an overwhelming desire to use my Spanish to reach out to native Spanish speakers in our country and abroad. I thought that calling was dead. I didn’t plan on listening to several missionaries speak on how much they needed help in their ministries in Spanish-speaking countries. I didn’t plan on feeling a call to reach out to the Hispanic community of Athens. I didn’t plan on doing anything whatsoever with that skill after I graduated college.┬áBut God knew I needed some way to work for the sake of His kingdom.

I didn’t plan to give up the reigns on my life. I wanted to be in control. I fought God, and I planned to be just fine on my own.

But plans change.

And here I am.

In the middle of God’s plan.

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